When I browse your blog, Shakti, I see how much your question resonates for you. An important question, familiar to many people, especially young people (I am assuming you are young — which by me, is under 50).
In my case, though, the fears and phobias now are mostly physical (e.g. vertiginous response to heights which has plagued me all my life) and/or experiential (being caught in a jam-packed elevator in college which then was stuck below basement level).
Which is not to say I don’t recognize fears created by inauthenticity and insecurity. And the need to grapple with them with courage, fortitude, and whatever wisdom you can muster. I certainly do!
But I no longer suffer from those.
And what occasioned this happy result? Probably just living to be 80, struggling along the way, and then, suddenly— freedom. Perhaps it’s letting go. Really letting go. Radically letting go because I no longer have the energy to hold on to such things.
These words may not have any meaning whatever to you at this time in your life. But perhaps when you grow old, and you are suddenly overwhelmed (to your surprise!) with joy and gratitude, you will remember and say, Oh, so that is what she meant!
(I mean this as a sign of hope; I hope you receive it as such.)
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